When I married my husband, I noticed that when going to bed it took him 7 minutes to fall asleep. How do I know this? I timed him! I would lay next to him wondering how does he do it? Then I started feeling envious of him....listening to the different breathing patterns he had, the snort every once in a while and then the freight train coming through. How did he do it? Why can't I do it? I asked him once, he said, "watch and learn."
So I'd lay there talking to myself, I can do this. Deep breaths, shake it off, relax....clear the mind...think of your happy place. I would sing to myself, I would try to get into sync with my husband's breathing, I would try to lull myself to sleep by listening to the sounds of his snoring....all to no avail. I would finally throw in the towel and get up.
My two stepdaughters, Michelle and Mindi were the same way as is my mother in law. They could sleep anywhere. We'd go out to eat and they'd be sleeping with their heads cocked against the car. It truly baffled me.
Last night was a tough night as has been the last week with the moisture, cold and winds. It flares up everything in my body and reaks havoc on my ability to get to sleep.
You see, I suffer from a few diseases that lend themself to chronic pains. I've been dealing with pain since 1991 when the chest pains came, then the acid reflux, arthritis took over my hands in 2000, and the list goes on and on. It's quite depressing and yet small to what others are carrying.
The house is under seige with workmen as we are doing some remodeling. One morning I heard the knocker and there stood Larry and Marty. The first thing out of Larry's mouth was "did we wake you up? It's 8:30am you know". Please note that at this point I'm pretty sure a judgement was made about me. Now I knew the time BUT do they know that I didn't get to bed till 4:00am? Do you know that I usually don't get to bed before 2:00am? As a result of the tone, I felt compelled to justify why I am sleeping at 8:30am in the morning.
Last night was a very bad one. The new pills given to me for my excrutiating pain that sent me to ER on Sunday were supposed to make me sleepy (yeah) taken in conjunction with the pain meds for my lumbar that is shot...... So I was excited on Sunday night to pop that little pill as I could taste the night of sleep ahead. Alas, my body did not want to cooperate.
Monday night was even worse. Larry and Marty would really be raising an eyebrow if they knew I slept till 10:00am this morning. But then, I didn't get to bed until 4:00am. But the sleep felt so good and I woke up feeling rested and ready to attack anything.
It's amazing how refreshed and ready for anything you feel after getting the proper amount of sleep.
Please pass the coffee and rolls.
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