Relationships

Today as I struggled with many things, I broke down and cried.  I don't know how I got to this place and I'm confused as to how to fix it.  All I want to do is run away.  Run away to Florida.  Right.....No!!

Please remember and I know this that running away is only a short term fix.  Kinda like going on a vacation.  When you board that plane to come back home, you're coming back to REALITY!!!  Hello....staring you in the face as soon as you hit home or sooner if you let your mind start to wander making lists of things that need to be done like I do.

Anyway, it seems relationships are running amuck and no sign of repair.  Right now the only things I know for sure is that my  husband loves me, and my heavenly father loves me.  Mitzee is questionnable as she has suffered a second bath in two days (dog park has more dust than grass).

Relationships are funny, aren't they?  We enter into them with a "hi, my name is Barbara" and they start down one path and end up on another.  How to fix that is the problem if you really want to fix it.  Do you want to repair the relationship?  Would you miss it if it were gone?  

When being reborn in 1998, I realized that I am not in this world alone.  That everyone I meet is potentially a friend and someone to love.  The bible says to love your neighbor. Every person you meet is a neighbor.  I love talking to people and I chose to see the good in them.  Why see the bad?  Why walk away with a bad feeling about that person?  I chose to be positive and see the good--it serves me better and in the end, who am I to judge?

On most days, I know God is present in my life.  On others, I ask him to be with me as I know it will be a tough day and I will need extra support.  It's a cozy, comfortable and warm feeling to know that he is with me and should something happen to me, I go home to be with him knowing I was not alone.  I'm thankful for this relationship.  When all else, when everyone else fails me, I know that this relationship is stable, rock solid and cherised.