Today as I was speaking with my daughter, I started to cry. It actually hurts very much to truly love someone with all your being. Unfortunately for me, that is how I love.
My daughter spoke volumes of wisdom as she processed the revelations she had (that by the way, were provided by God and friends).
I was crying for many reasons: Revelations that pushed her and her life in another direction
Revelations that we all make mistakes. Revelations that relationships take work each and every day. Revelations that being loved and giving love away is a wonderful thing. Revelation that forgiveness is at our discretion and should be used frequently.
In our today world, it's so easy to toss a relationship by the way side. As it is with marriages, when one individual feels they are not being treated nice, not loved enough or the way they want, they aren't being given the proper amount of attention, etc., the marriage is tossed by the way side. What are we doing people?????
Wake up!!! Take a stand for your relationships and love freely and deeply. Forgive and move on. You're wasting precious time that you could use to deepen and strengthen ALL relationships.
With love
Barbara
p.s. To my children, Carrie, Michelle, Mindi, Meagan and Candice: Please know how much I love you and that I am proud of the person you have become and will develop into.
To my husband: Thank you for loving me the way you do and know that you, too, are my pride and joy.
To my other family and friends: Know that I love you and thank you for being in my life and being a blessing to me.
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Saturday, June 12, 2010
Saturday, June 12, 2010
Whoever loves money never has enough money
whoever loves wealth is never satisfied with his income.
whoever loves wealth is never satisfied with his income.
Friday, June 11, 2010
Words to Help You Live
Your life is only as good as the choices you make
Keep expectations low--or you'll always be disappointed.
Expect nothing--you'll never be disappointed. Should you get something, you'll be pleasantly surprized.
Keep expectations low--or you'll always be disappointed.
Expect nothing--you'll never be disappointed. Should you get something, you'll be pleasantly surprized.
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
It Is Finished
On Monday evening as Martin and I watched tv, my cell phone rang. Not recognizing the number but knowing the area code I picked up immediately--it was Maureen.
"I have some bad news" she says, "Harry passed away at 1:30pm this afternoon." I went into the office and heard the details, cried a little, tried to be supportive. However, Maureen had it pretty much together until she talked about shipping his body back to Illinois. She lost it ever so briefly and like a warrior, regained composure and finished. I cried.
When Harry first got diagnosed with melanoma 2 years ago, they were both positive. A trip to the Mayo in Jacksonville, FL turned in to a 3 week stay, with several surgeries under both armpits and with him leaving with not one but three drainage tubes out of him.
All during this time, he was upbeat and positive about the outcome. Upon returning to the Mayo and finding that there were more tumors and another surgery was required, he still remained optimistic and Harry being Harry was kidding with the nurses, and cracking jokes, and making people smile and laugh.
He entered the Moffitt Cancer Institute for a more holistic approach which was determental and after 6 weeks was released from the program as the tumors had tripled in number and back to the normal route of chemo and radiation therapy. Still Harry was positive.
It wasn't until this past February when they were attempting to get him into yet another trial that I saw this man not have anything positive but then it really wasn't negative either. He had to pass 5 tests in order to be accepted into another trial for his type of cancer. He had passed four and was awaiting the results of the 5th.
I called to let him know I was coming to Florida and did he have the results yet, and being optimistic myself I waited for him to speak. He said, I can't get into the trial. The cancer is in my brain. It's not good. Again, a loss for words on my part. What are you going to do, he said.
From here he went into an aggressive chemo and radiation therapy every day for 4-5 hours. He ended up with colitis for 12 weeks and lost an enormous amount of weight.
Upon arriving in Florida and arranging a time when I could come and see them, I was shocked to see his appearance. He had lost alot of weight, hair, his eyes were sunken, he spoke softly and slowly and he walked even slower.
He rose to give me a kiss and a hug. We talked until I felt I had overstayed my visit. That was the last time I saw Harry.
I've seen numerous loved ones eaten away by cancer. My mother, my grandfather, my uncle, and numerous friends. I hate cancer. Cancer of any type, colon, breast, cervical, whatever--it is EVIL!!!!
We have got to get a handle on this disease. It is killing thousands per year. If we can cure polio, why can't we find a cure for cancer???
Lord, I pray that Harry is in heaven with his mom and dad and although somewhat sad that he had to leave his precious Maureen behind, that he is much happier and healthier. Lord, watch over Maureen and provide comfort and peace and friends to support her until she can be reunited with her Harry.
"I have some bad news" she says, "Harry passed away at 1:30pm this afternoon." I went into the office and heard the details, cried a little, tried to be supportive. However, Maureen had it pretty much together until she talked about shipping his body back to Illinois. She lost it ever so briefly and like a warrior, regained composure and finished. I cried.
When Harry first got diagnosed with melanoma 2 years ago, they were both positive. A trip to the Mayo in Jacksonville, FL turned in to a 3 week stay, with several surgeries under both armpits and with him leaving with not one but three drainage tubes out of him.
All during this time, he was upbeat and positive about the outcome. Upon returning to the Mayo and finding that there were more tumors and another surgery was required, he still remained optimistic and Harry being Harry was kidding with the nurses, and cracking jokes, and making people smile and laugh.
He entered the Moffitt Cancer Institute for a more holistic approach which was determental and after 6 weeks was released from the program as the tumors had tripled in number and back to the normal route of chemo and radiation therapy. Still Harry was positive.
It wasn't until this past February when they were attempting to get him into yet another trial that I saw this man not have anything positive but then it really wasn't negative either. He had to pass 5 tests in order to be accepted into another trial for his type of cancer. He had passed four and was awaiting the results of the 5th.
I called to let him know I was coming to Florida and did he have the results yet, and being optimistic myself I waited for him to speak. He said, I can't get into the trial. The cancer is in my brain. It's not good. Again, a loss for words on my part. What are you going to do, he said.
From here he went into an aggressive chemo and radiation therapy every day for 4-5 hours. He ended up with colitis for 12 weeks and lost an enormous amount of weight.
Upon arriving in Florida and arranging a time when I could come and see them, I was shocked to see his appearance. He had lost alot of weight, hair, his eyes were sunken, he spoke softly and slowly and he walked even slower.
He rose to give me a kiss and a hug. We talked until I felt I had overstayed my visit. That was the last time I saw Harry.
I've seen numerous loved ones eaten away by cancer. My mother, my grandfather, my uncle, and numerous friends. I hate cancer. Cancer of any type, colon, breast, cervical, whatever--it is EVIL!!!!
We have got to get a handle on this disease. It is killing thousands per year. If we can cure polio, why can't we find a cure for cancer???
Lord, I pray that Harry is in heaven with his mom and dad and although somewhat sad that he had to leave his precious Maureen behind, that he is much happier and healthier. Lord, watch over Maureen and provide comfort and peace and friends to support her until she can be reunited with her Harry.
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